Wednesday, November 18, 2009
"It's always the memories that hurt the most when everything ends.the happier the memory, the more painful.
They flood your mind like ocean waves.waves that you cant resist, and can only be engulfed by them.
It hurts even more, when you come across the places you've been to together.or see that small little ornament on our dressing table that was gift to you for that occasion.'remember that time?' you whisper to yourself.
oh yes. i still remember your eyes. your smile.that hug that came along with the little lovely present.and that kiss.and then, without caution, tears start to flow.'i miss you..' you say, 'i miss you so much..'when all along, in the day, you still smiled happily around everyone.you broke down...
what will you do, if you meet each other a year or two later, on the streets?pretend you never knew the person and walk off, or go up and say hi?would a casual chat rake up the painful memories again?
that, is love.sweet, but painful at the same time.that, is love.you yearn for it, but is afraid of it at the same time.."
Got this from my friends bloggy...
it really reflects how I'm feeling right this very moment.
woke up form the sweetest dream and yet it can be the most fearful nightmare...
Sweetness mixture of bitterness.
Heart is still aching badly.Finally, i really broke down with so much tears in my eyes...
or i should say,, my heart is really bleeding badly.
I shouted "HELP!" in that corner of the dark room in my heart...
Is it a relieve that i m finally shouting for help in my heart?
not shutting that very door that hard anymore? or it is still very shut that people cant even enter?
No confidence.
Lack of trust for people.
Heart sunk.
Ran out of tears.
When you told me you loved me
did you know it will take me the rest of my life?
To get over the feeling of knowing
A dream didn't turn out right
When you let me believe that you weren't complete
without me by your side
How could i know
That you would go
That you would run
Baby, i thought you were the one.
why can't I just leave it all,everything behind.
Time.
alrights, next year seems to be a Busy bee year for me... hope my trip comes faster... i just want to leave it all behind...really. the fact that i was blind that make me weak..
Y01:11
