Wednesday, September 30, 2009
my heart is so heavy now.. with tears in my eyes..
how much do i weigh in your heart?
is it just a tiny bit? or not at all?
I've kept a tiny bit of hope in my heart...
That i don't dare to hope for even more
although i said i will not waver or even change in my decision in my previous post.
but That tiny bit gives me strength.
but now, somehow is it been destroyed...?
Now i have cried...so painful.. all the pain, all cried out at one go. HURTS.
you never want to fight with the others for me. Or maybe I'm not worth it? ha
you always wanted the best for me but you never spare a thought for my feelings.
you never say things out but keep in your heart.
i should have known that you already made up your mind when you say you don't trust me.
just deluding myself over and over again...hoping there will be another tiny hope.
Guess there will not be a day that you say you trust me. i accept it.
A false alarm right from the start? or maybe you will say you don't know who I am...
Yes, i also don't say it out what I am feeling. i don't want you to feel the same as i am.
Let me be the one feeling all the shit stuff.
why do i still care about you so much when you keep wanting to push me to other people?
I will take your advice as my consideration.
YVONNE, YOUR STUPID.
am i?
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