Monday, July 20, 2009
Thanks to all for came for my birthday bash...Especially, Gina who stayed with me on the Sunday night if not... never mind... alot of presents, alot of friends came... Tension is so HUGE and definitely I am not happy. Throughout the whole thing.
So many things in my mind that I could hardly breathe. So hard to digest in my mind. Everything is chocking in my mind. like is gonna Explode anytime...
Close friends are saying...Chill von chill...you can do it...but sometimes things seem not what they are. Is harder to slove but easier to run away... & how i wished I could run away but I can't... That's just not me... That's why I am so vexed now...HOpefully I wont get into depression ha!
I just want to go to Australia thats all...
What more can I say? Just feel like going MIA... oKOK!! I know! Running away feeling is here again...hais....
Sometimes, I think I am a failure...
towards R/S, Family, friends....
I feel Like what my friends say about me is right...DUMBO is my 2nd name. FLIRT is my 3rd name. HA! LAUGH OUT LOUD! i seriously don't know what to say...
So to you who are reading my bloggy...am I a failure to you?
Maybe just leave me alone for the time being?
Someone just use a knife and stab me at the back...
my Sunflower died.... Someone please make me smile from deep within...not the outside of me only....Please?
Y13:33
